People have been asking me which of the Wil Can Fly photos is my favorite. It’s really hard to pick a favorite but I do love the bathroom mirror shot, I love to wonder what was going through Wil’s mind as he looked at himself for the first time in the mirror. This image of Wil and I is also one of my favorites. I stumbled across it this week and the memories of that moment came flooding back. We were getting ready to take the photo of Wil flying as I was running with him and Nikki snapped this photo to make sure the focus was correct. I remember this moment very clearly, it was one of those moments when you look into your kid’s eyes and see them as if it were the first time all over again.
It’s hard to explain but I’m sure most of your parents understand. I think about the first time I saw Wil after he was born and recall how I felt when this photo was taken. I love all of my kids equally but my love for Wil is slightly different. My love for him is somewhat entrenched with a sense of regret for thinking so negatively after learning of Wil’s diagnosis. Sometimes I feel like I owe him more love as a way of apologizing to him but then I realize it doesn’t have to be that way. I’m sure if he could speak he would have forgiven me many times over without ever needing an apology from me.